Job Search

Today I am kind of stressed out that all of my job searches were dead ends, no replies. Once again I worried. As soon as I took my eyes off the the LORD who is in charge of all things, my worries creep in. But as I sat and read God's Word of promises, I am reminded once again of God's grace and His sovereignty. I went back to read my "Joshua's stones" and found I wrote "just when I don't know where is the income for the month of June, IRS sents me a check of $2,500." The words hit me, as if it was saying to me that the month of June is already taken care of, according to my own words, why do I worry? Why do I want to hurry God to provide me with a job this week? If God had already provided my income for the month of June, why should He provide me a job again? Why can't I just rest in my heart, get my house in order, settle in, study some Hebrews, and let God work out the rest of the details?

This is what I read today in Proverbs 11:8 "The righteous is delivered from trouble,
and the wicked walks into it instead." If God is able to work out all these complicated, inter-tangled relationship in the human society, why can't I trust that God will have me to wait for someone else to quit (or be fired) before I will be hired. Maybe that guy's iniquity is not full yet, and God is showing him His long-suffereing and mercy, and I should wait patiently? I am reminded of God's promise to Abraham, that his decedents will inherit the land, but not until 430 years later, until the iniquity of the land is filled. God knows the whole picture, I don't, therefore I should wait and be patient.